First crush and lost love …

Last time when i saw him , he walked past me. My heart beat stopped for a moment or was  it  an attraction that froze my soul and the world around me.

He went putting his head down lost in his own world but with a tingly smile that wrapped me when i first met him, walking fast and smart as he did when i was in the college. He is the most beautiful man i ever seen in this world.  i  am sure he will miss me too, he has too. I know he loved me too.

I felt as if  i missed him for a lifetime. As if i had a relation with him for many lives before.

So, what made him attractive, then?  I lost the reason.  Have i lost a life , losing him.

“Of course, i loved and admired him. I will ever respect him, for there was something that charmed and hooked me. But i knew one thing that ,he could leave me for someone prettier . I was never looking good or smart.  But when you love someone, you also take the risk of losing him. ” , said neena.

Anybody  who remembers their first love reading this would probably agree with me that losing your first love is one of the most traumatic, painful emotional experiences of a person’s  early years. Is that what neena felt like when he left her, how do u think he should have responded.

When her  very first love was deep routed in her  heart , it never got  reciprocated . He  abandoned it, she truly felt crashed and destroyed. She was depressed. She thought of living without marriage and wait for him one day , may be thats what she wanted to for .

One day he invited her for his marriage.After all, every man and a woman tend to believe that that first person who they fall for is that one-of-a-kind special partner that will spend a lifetime with them. When these hopes are shattered by the common reality of losing first love, we feel betrayed, powerless, and above all – angry; we believe that there has to be something we could do to fix the situation, to bring that person back into our life and to resolve any differences that caused the break up.

“His hand in my hand was like sand in one’s hand” ,it was sliding down , continuously. I wanted it to stay, but i knew i will not be able to hold it for long. She was down. After years of that stint , she still made up a part of her moment , where he was immortalised.

After long years , she might pass on this information to her daughter. In one moment she will relive it all again. There was one thing that made it  so live was the amount of charm he spell on her. “I was helpless, at his sight i forget everything and just go innocent like a cute little girl waiting for his hug.”

A point that was obviated was the kind of attraction some people have on us is life long. They live in memories for ever,  losing them is not the end to it. Such relations sediment a strong layer of emotional matter which can feed the mind with enough love and support for entire life. This is a very important to realise that most people who are out of it , find it difficult to lose this perennial source of emotional energy.


Sometimes, feelings for a crush can be confusing because they’re new to you and you aren’t sure how to act. You could have mixed feelings.

When you see your crush, a part of you might feel embarrassed and you might want to run away and hide. Another part of you might imagine your crush noticing you and sharing the same feelings.


When you develop special feelings toward someone, it can change your world. You might want to talk on the phone or ask your crush to your birthday party or a school dance. As you get older and your feelings change, you might be ready for your first boyfriend or girlfriend and even your first kiss! But for now, you might just be friends with your crush, if your crush wants to be friends with you.

We expected it to be a nicer world, but mostly we all live with lost love. How far is this justifed ? Is true love unseen. Can we not have the right to be with someone whom we loved once.

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