A talk

i will get…

these days, i am doing the things, that i can’t do.. the communication.. great


u r the guru

and everything starts with a Guru

No doubt u will get all solutions ” 😀

Communication is nothing new for u

u know it well 

i am communicating with u

🙂 I am mastering the art of communicating 

We r learning it 


i know.. you are the master.. only a master can say like this.. 


I m learning everyday

When i say u r the Guru i mean it

when we go away i will miss u Guru and yr experiences 

Therefore i value this time as precious and its less now

but now i am learning faster everything in my  life

Faster than when i was a child

We need a guru to develop our talents 

My mom used to say “Guru bina gyaan nahi hota he”

She was right !!


Post my love …

Lemme tell you the story of my friend Viv and neena. Neena worked in a huge commercial city but away from her native.She had a great liking to come back and settle in her native . She wanted a peaceful life and she was much settled into her job. Around the start of the new year , neena meets a guy called Viv in the orkut, going through his profile. Viv worked in their native. After a long sentimental pause in her life ,she was about to meet a guy who would change her from what she was. She has been through the blues of a love ,one year back.

But in her life, she had been through the ups and downs of love. There was at times when she felt that she had found the love of her life. That was when she was finding out the true sense of attachment to somebody.

“when did i start the crush for him i am not sure , but it was during the 9th class that i felt something special about him. Then it was a different feeling , more of kidding than any serious crush. I still remember the first time having seen him. We used to go for Short hand and typing classes. My group always had teena and rosi. They are the friends from my childhood. Both were outspoken and outgoing from the very young age.
I still have the typing class fresh in my memory, first time when he too joined for the class. He was a very senior member and maintained a serious charm around him. He would come and sit there in the corner seat. Quietly will he finish the tutorials, sometimes not even speaking a word. He felt like a pet …whom i wanted to play. I sat with teena always making the most amount of noise in the class.
I was restless to get his attention…”

It was late in to the nights that they discuss and share the freedom of expressing each of their personal experience.

“At that time it was fun and I was blessed to have somebody love me. He was my dream man.” She was reading out a page from one of her old diaries. “My life was so meaningful , with the thoughts of him around. There were days , when I was restless not having seen him for long.”

“I cried the whole night , when he called me and said that he is getting married. I could not control my heart. Sadness made me crazy and i lost ”

“We all think of treats and party , happiness in life is so necessary, but parting with some one whom we thought is good and mistook them for our partnership is so necessary ! Leave people who left us without any reason !! They never deserved us. Those who deserve us will never make us cry and we never cry for anybody in this world!!” ,viv was telling her .

“hmm… tell me was it true love that you had then for somebody” , viv asked her as if he was getting restless to know the story.

“When did you meet for the first time and where was it? “ he was impatient. His impatience made her uneasy. She always feared that his inquisitiveness was filled with doubts. He had to negate her doubts every time.

They were together for a couple of years.She loved him but their she never found what the true she was looking for.
“This was the first time in my life when i felt a value for myself , for a period of time I felt important and good for someone. I never valued myself ,and it was there on my face. ” Viv told me after i met him in the coffee house for a tea.
They had a talk and it seems life’s put a lot of challenges to them before they can unite. It is unbearable to lose somebody after learning that you are helpless.
I had a very busy day in the office so a cup of tea in the evening refreshed me a lot. A story over a cup of tea is the best thing I can have.
“But today my tears have come back!” ,he was sipping on and gazed into my eyes as if looking for an answer.
“hmm ! Why viv” , i knew it. I knew when i was in the university, to have lost a person would mean the loss of this world. You cry like a helpless destitute ,a child whose mother has just gone missing.
“My tears were waiting for a comeback. For the past six months they could never wet me completely. They tried but couldn’t. But today, they wet my soul. I am alone again. suddenly, all of a sudden I am alone. ” ,he was true. He will be indeed alone.

“She said, she is crying and wet her pillow, it was all because of me.” he was talking about neena.
“But, she may, never understand my pain” .
“No viv, you are wrong..she can easily understand.If i could then she will for sure” , i whispered to me in my mind.
“because, as usual, I used to eat away my pain. I became silent after years, probably after three years, in these three years, I chirped lot. As if my soul is dead. I was dead three years back to. I struggled really hard for a comeback!!!”
he was never interested in the tea now.
I know him very well, he talks and chirps like a chatterbox. But when sad he goes into a cocoon, and never comes out.

“I need a patient ear to listen to my story. ”
“I am here , i got time today tomorrow is a leave”

I noticed something about his dress. It looked shabby and smelly too. But i never bothered to ask him.
“It was first day in my office here that I came with the same dress which I was sleeping in. I was numb, after the call. I was like a deaf who could only hear the banging s of dance, the dancing of the wounded soul. This is what happened to me, a few years back, I could never cope up with my frustrations, and was thrown back and back…” I think he understood from looks and started telling what happened in the office.

“As my friend rightly told me,You are not made for this world. How many times yaar,
I don’t know why i make people cry.”
“You never make anybody cry, i know you make everybody laugh” i knew him well.
“hmm …”
“He is the guy who ate up every sorrow from rising and never show it up on the face.He would be appreciating people even when he lost the game. He would like to spend the last moment of his happiness even when he was pick pocketed just a few moments back.And they think he is the most happy man and never share, his sorrows he was alone “, i told to myself.


I was so engrossed in his story that i forgot about an appointment with Dr Arun. I was almost late ,but my cell phone started ringing. “How crap ” I got angry at the cell. But it was the appointment call. We are so packed up in our lives that emotions and feelings have no place in our lives.
“One sec ,Viv ”
“Hmmm……” he stopped.
i felt bad to break his conversation.
“hey ,I got to go right now and be back in the room after 30 minutes. We meet up there and continue the talks”, i was almost out at the reception paying the bills.
“sure , i will be n yr room after 30 minutes”
“see ya , then take care”
And we were off for a short break.

Viv walked alone in the streets for a while and he recollected the chat lines with neena ,”I drink too much of water, more than 2.5 liters of water a day, that’s why I cry so much, my eyes are full of water every time.”
“hahahahaha….” her reply came in.
“we are so emotional…” she typed in.
They would chat for hours after they reach home. It was a meeting time and they dated everyday.
It was a busy and a dark street he was walking with loads of thinking working tiresomely in his mind’s workshop. Its the devil’s workshop…
“But life has got something else in store for us ….
we will be close friends for ever … closer than ever friends had been … ” he said to himself..

“The rains were heavy and pour tons of water , the rain gods cried finally , they were waiting for us to cry. “she shouted over the phone.
She called me in the morning. I could hear rain bashing down heavily in the background …
But Gods are merciless they never have emotions. They never feel sad and happy…….

After 30 minutes we met at my room to resume the talk…
we got the dinner ready ,from a nearby hotel.
Thought of having it while we talked.

“I promised her a come back.”
“Apart from the sorrow and the sadness i have , today i am happy for her .
Today i may be sad , but my gratitude for the bigger happiness she has given me.
My most valuable accomplishment after this relation is that I’ve reached a point in my life where i live very, very consciously. Each day will have a purpose . Each day of my life will be filled with meaning and purpose and gratitude. I enjoy a deep sense of inner peace and joy. Today i can promise myself ,I am unafraid to take action and to fail.”

“i dont know if i can come back in life, you know am still struggling ” ,he has the one round ball of tear ,shaping up in the corner of his eyes.
i knew he was right… We all struggle to put an end to the struggles. But they all never seem to end.